Well it’s here. Basically. It’s now a little past midnight, the wind blowing with a determination to find a crack in the house’s armor, and I’m taking a brain-break from studying.

Research Methods In Psychology I

Tomorrow – or later today, to be more accurate – are my last two tests for this semester. The results of these tests are definitely not set in stone.

Damn this semester has been crazy. Between the exchange thing going, then not going, then going, then not going, then… in a vicious circle that’s been repeated essentially all semester, to a failed relationship, to other general stuff, I guess it’s no surprise that I’ve got my first “F” this semester. Hopefully my last “F”.

I really wonder what this is going to do my GPA. That’s a huge concern for me because I receive scholarships based on my grades, which have been all A’s and B’s since joining the university. Now this whirlwind of a semester has put those scholarships into question.

For any normal students the results of this semester would not be a big deal. On some level even I don’t care. Money though.. it’s a bitch. I hope that I get to continue attending the university.

Yet I digress, as usual.

Sigh, the wind is making it through somewhere. This house is fairly new, so it kind of surprises me that it’s able to get in here. I do get a light breeze..

Ah well.

Research Methods In Psychology and Descriptive Astronomy are the two classes that I’ve studied for since around 2 PM today. Maybe 2:30. I haven’t done anything else since then. I keep telling myself, “THIS IS IT! ONCE THIS IS DONE, IT’S DONE!” .. It helps a little, but I’ve had to take a couple of brain breaks – this being the second.

Descriptive Astronomy really shouldn’t have me worried, but I’ve had a prevalent problem of being unable to focus on anything much at all this semester. I’m feeling it all over campus to be honest; no one, even the instructors, are as relaxed as they were just last semester. There’s an over all sense of… what? “Fuck it” in the air? Something like that.

DA is a good class with a good instructor. I like her. She’s, as they say, cool. Love the material in this class, too. I just wish that I could have the focus to study the material more often; not that this matters after … today, technically. I’ve had all week to study, but every time that I’ve sat done to do so I didn’t last more than a minute.

Perhaps having no idea if I would be in this country or in South Korea in roughly a month’s time has had something to do with that.

Hells, I don’t think I’ll be going though. With tomorrow (today, whatever) being the last day of class and me still not having all of the required information to complete the process.. then no. I doubt it. I need a syllabus (or something else that describes the class) to give to the registrars office. They don’t have these available just yet, so I can’t go my registrars office and get the transfer of credits verified. Without that I can’t send – via snail mail – the packet to South Korea.

Even if I could, I’d have to wait for them to process the papers and send their acceptance letter back to me via snail mail. I’d then take that acceptance letter and snail mail it to the consulate in Chicago, who would have to process it and give me my visa and then ship my passport back to me.

All in time to leave in Feb. Maybe if I could magically get the paper work done tomorrow it could happen, but classes are done tomorrow. Vamoosh! School’s closed, kids, ’till Spring semester. Then I would have, oh, maybe one month for all of that to get done.

Ain’t happening, eh?

Here’s another joyful bit of shit that I get to stress out over: I have not pre-enrolled for Spring semester at PSU. I had no reason to because I was supposed to be going over seas. Well here I am, about 90% certain that I’m not going, and not enrolled HERE for Spring.

Jeebus. It seems like it’s all about dodging bullets these days.

Come next Fall I’ll try to go, once again, to South Korea. This time though I’ll most likely be heading to one of the universities in Seoul.

I want to state very clearly that I have nothing against the university in Jinju. The people there are great. They have worked so hard and they have been very, very helpful.

The problem is that the deadlines at my university are in considerable conflict with the time table at this particular Korean university. So this causes problems for everyone. It’s not because they’re not doing their job, because they definitely are doing a great job. It’s because I simply can not meet the requirements set forth by PSU in time for everything to happen.

Surely it must work easier with the Seoul universities because we have a number of students who have already gone there. In fact, I know one guy who is leaving in Spring who has already completed his paper – apparently he completed it all quite some time ago. So obviously, the universities in Seoul have a time table that is easier to work with.

In a way this will work out for the best. I miss Haengbok. I really do. She’s the greatest person I’ve met at PSU; heck, she’s the nicest person I’ve personally met in quite some time. She’s in Seoul, and I really hope to see my good friend again soon. I miss her. T_T

It’s going to break her heart when I have to tell her that I can’t come in the Spring. She was very happy that I would be there… argh.. it’s for the best, though. I’ll go directly to Seoul in the Fall (hopefully, eh?) and, in the long run, we’ll definitely get a chance to hang out more often.

So, wow, I’ve rambled so much and there’s a lot more that I can say, but I guess I should get back to studying the Astronomy stuff. Or not. I should get some sleep. Hey, I’m a psychology major, I know that sleep is very important to passing tests. In other words, I know better than to stay up until 3 am studying. That hasn’t stopped me from doing so in the past..

Hells. I couldn’t get to sleep right now if I tried, but I suppose that I’ll try anyway. Three more chapters and I’m done anyhow..

Must’n panic. that wouldn’t help a thing.

Good night from this evening’s disheveled host.

Oh hey look, it’s 12:36 AM.